I heard there’s someone new now
For a fleeting moment, I was sad
Then the thought of past relationships
Failed attempts, fluttered on by
I began to wonder
Is she nice to you?
Can she cook like grandma?
Does she laugh at your jokes?
Has she sung to you?
Is she enough?
Does she give you what you want?
Then I paused
Had to realize what was happening
As if I cared what she was like
I was more worried for her than you
Would you, could you
Even live up to her expectations
And would you work harder than ever
To cover up what you put us all through
I wondered why I cared
Because I didn’t, but I do
A sad, but inevitable truth
The toxicity alone could’ve been the death of me
Sitting here laughing to myself
Because I stopped hoping the first time I moved on
I guess curiosity got the best of me
Curious I was about someone new
Curious about someone you knew nothing about
Wondering if you drown in a love so deep
If it’ll hurt when she’s gone
This may be wrong of me to say
But is it really after what I had to endure
If it turns out she’s not the one
It’d be great if you didn’t see it coming
There’s an intense amount of pain
When someone leaves you alone to fight through the drought.
Tedra