It may be harder than I thought
To talk to you and not talk to you
Then those times I have to catch myself
Because I’m staring when I shouldn’t be
But the energy alone is the reason I can’t
I can’t stop vibing, connecting
When you’re something I want
It’s just what my soul does next to yours
I try hard to do good when the pressure onsets
Your careless closeness taunts me
Even the tone in which you insinuate
Tells me I’m terribly lost when it comes to you
Be as it may, I continue to try
Because in this minute, at these uncertain times
It’s not the right time to feel you
But it may be harder than I thought
Wise scales me like a mountain
But your mind is the only important peak
I can’t begin to tell you how this crush
And that’s exactly what it is
Because I find myself closeting feelings for you
Cramming inside that chest
That I can never seem to find the key for
Only because I burnt it way back when
In a period I spent writing love letters to idiots
A lockless, seared, overflowing box
But all the while, a crush nonetheless
An unfortunate likeness in a beautiful game of odds
And it’s definitely harder than I thought.
Tedra